I've tried reflecting on the thought about what is love, and it's given me a round house of a headache, I've tried going back into past situations..and remembering how I felt about that certain someone who I was attracted to then...So much research on this brain, left it like OMEGA FRIED!!! LIKE SERVER CRASH!!!>>>>> -__- eh, After doing all of this thinking, and thats not even the half of this matter....LOVE is strange, powerful, tiring, and depressing depending on how it effects you....I Think love is strange because it can attract you to people you never knew even existed, I know this from personal experience myself...Then later after this feeling of emotions passed, I was completely dumbfounded of why I even was attracted to this person,I tried hard to think of a reason.......I couldn't I was like damn thats creepy.....(then I kinda thought about why people re-cap when its wedding time)lol...
BUT after all of that I Still till this very day, don't understand why I Was even attracted to the people I liked by then....LOL SELF BLACKMALE!!!!>>>>>> I Think that love is also very powerful...When you love someone it can make you stronger or weaker, Ive from personal experience have been very strong when it came to loving someone....I had that ill do any and everything you want me to do, as long as im yours attitude/ that Ill stay with you forever till the earth and heavens diminish attitude/ that ill lay down my life and die for you attitude/ I though of things that I thought I would never think of when it came to love.....Sometimes I even asked was this me, is this my soul speaking within me...It kinda scared me that wanted another human being this badly.. The reason why I think love is so tiring because It takes a lot from you, I Know myself, The constant thinking, the wandering, the what IF's, all my emotions pounding away at my heart, over whelming my mind, I can't sleep, I can't really worry about current things in my life, It seems like time is going slow like Im trapped, stuck, I can't get out.....My mind is filled with that person's name....over and over again...then some how I get a little time to breath and think about some else, maybe watch a show, or laugh, Then that wave comes back....I had all this going through my mind, but I never told anyone...I think i didn't say anything because this was new to me, I didn't know how to explain or where to being/plus I was scared ....This last part of experience with love.....is called depression ( yea, this always the chapter that I end up on in the book of love) Being depressed is not enjoying, I've come across this so much, this where you realize that all the time you spent hurting, wanting, needing, just wanting to do something right after all this time, that wishing over and over you could got the person you wanted, was a waist....I myself was hit pretty hard the first time this happen, I felt so sick and tired, but most of all angry.....because I felt that If that person would just given me a chance I would been the most happiest person alive, and I could love that person beyond explanations, because I know myself how romantic I can be ...ID probly be a changed person.....BUT not all things that you want you can't have, No matter how much you suffer and wage for it, I think thats the hardest part about moving on ....It kinda keeps you chained down...You don't know when your sentence is up off of this trial either, Thank god my trial is done, I'm not saying Its easy, cause its not......But its a matter or learning and going on.....There will be others out there and, your still young so don't fall apart on just one session,



ms. chan : i know it got typos SHUT UP -_-